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Archive for April, 2010

Motherhood! One word, yet so many emotions. From the minute I found out I was pregnant my mind instantly went into overdrive.  I thought about changes that were right around the corner and changes that were years away. I was happy, I was scared, I was sad and so much more. I didn’t know until I was a mom, just how much I would love being a mom.

Being a parent presents you with so many challenges and is such a roller coaster of emotions. The pay –off is so well worth it.  There are many days where I could spit nails at work, and something my daughter said or did will pop into my mind and out of no where comes a huge smile.  I am so anxious for five o’clock just so that I can go and pick her up, because I waiting for her to recap her day.  After homework and dinner it is our time, we play, we nuzzle, she is just so yummy.  As I watch her fade off to sleep, I look at her face and wonder to myself, what did I do before you?  My life is small but now so very significant.

The wonderment of nurturing a life and watching it change and grow is amazing. Everything that you are becomes intertwined with this other person.  Your caring, giving, sharing and going without, has no boundaries.  Their happiness and well-being comes first without hesitation.  It’s so strange how that mentality becomes second nature. I love being a mom, the good and the bad that comes with it, is all worth it to me.

I have always wondered what is to become of me when my daughter is grown and ready to live her own life?  What will I do, who will I be, so much of who I am has something to do with being a mother.  Friends have always said that is why I should have had more children, but why … they will grow up and leave too.  How do you stop the inevitable? I am not unhappy with the way things are, I want to include her in everything I do, I enjoy all the time we spend together, I don’t feel like I have sacrificed anything because I had to… everything I do as a mom is because I want to.

I am very fortunate in the respect that I have never had a bad life.  Hard with some unpleasant times, but times that made me stronger and aware of how much people have to struggle with.  One thing is for sure; being a parent is what it is all about for me. Like I said not a bad life, but she has made it so much better.